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I was talking to my Frat (who shall remain nameless)...about relationships. Actually...He simply asked me "What do I want??" (As far as a relationship is concerned). And half-joking and half-serious, I said (in so many words), that I wanted a fine, sexy beast of choco-mocha-latte-caramel fine-ness...with a brain...that could put it on me!! (Ok...I didn't say that........exactly! LOL) He's telling me...”I'm trying to get you to think like a man...........what do you want?" I was like...:" Uhm...that's what I want!!” ...".

He was like...."I don't believe want a's written all over your face. All of that is physical/sexual and I refuse to believe that's all u want". I said "why can’t I have those needs? I didn’t say that was all I wanted. ...what's wrong with that??" He was like..."Absolutely nothing wrong about that. But the two things (relationship worthy dude with a good head on his shoulders and can bend u into a pretzel) don't always come in the same package....It isn’t impossible. I'm just trying to get u to think like a man. Or like me at least ;) You have to use the opposite sex for what u want. And if it takes me 2 or 3 women to build my perfect woman then that's what I got to do ;)...."

Seriously?? Is it like that???Take one man's man's brawn...another one's massive sex appeal..........BAM..... The perfect man. So person won't fulfill all your needs, etc.??

So is finding a mate truly like Build-a-Bear workshop?? You build and place pieces here and there...from like...4-5 different sources...HOPE they have some heart.... (Cause give it to LITERALLY give them your heart)...make a wish...and ATTEMPT to love them forever?I mean have we come to that?? Is that what singleness is about? Somebody school me...cause ya'll know I'm like 6 years removed from dating.........and like 8 months fresh back out here.... and furthermore...WTF is wrong with wanting a relationship? He made it seem like that's such a bad thing?? Like water on a Gremlin...!! *smh* Yes..I am definitely the relationship type. Some ladies are build for power....some for like to be on "cruise control" when it comes to men. Have some "staying power"....

So really...ladies...we got to "build-a-dude"??? ( you have to "Build-a-Lady" too??)

Let's talk....


  1. omg, lmao @ the image of us having to build a man like "build-a-bear". hehe, i dont know why that sounded so funny to me. that pic u chose is perfect, actually.

    well on some level i think that is true. and at the very least, we start with a "rough draft" of what will ultimately become a "final project" who is our man. most dudes need at least some work/shaping, and over the course of the courtship/relationship they evolve into that final project (if we are lucky, that is)


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