It's been 3 years since you've been gone. I've been on my own. I had to bear the weight of trying to figure out motherhood without you. I've tried to complete my goals.. but they now seem pointless because you won't be there. I miss you. The baby misses you and she doesn't even know you... She calls out for you sometimes. And I tell her stories about you. She knows you. I just miss you. You weren't done mothering me.