Sex and The Southern Belle

Turning 39 aka Thirty Fine has been an experience. My body has more aches and pains...I think I also found a gray hair... I've had to make more doctor's appointments than I'd like... I am out of breath when I chase my kid.. which reminds me to work out more and eat better. I have to keep laxative on deck because I'm getting old... But... I also decided that my 39th birthday would be the day that I  I would not give a f*** during my last year of my 30s. I do not care what you think about my body. Imma wear a sheer shirt and show all my midriff. I don't care what you think about how I parent. I am going to parent how I want and Baby Girl will be better for it. I do not care that I am broke or have money for all the things I want I do not care that I don't have a fly whip. I do not care that my skin and hair isn't perfect all the time I don't care if I wear makeup today.. and none tomorrow. I am going to eat what I fucking want...

My 39th birthday is in two weeks. *sigh* You know, I feel like I write the same type of blog around my birthday every year. I get extremely introspective and pensive about the whole thing. But this is my last year of my 30s and I am feeling all of the feelings that have ever and could be felt. I hate trying to bring this up to folks.. who are always wanting to remind you of "well.. you got this.. you got that...". As if you haven't dealt with depression long enough to realize it doesn't matter what you have... if one piece is missing.. it throws it all off. While yesterday was the 3rd anniversary of my mom's passing, I realized she wouldn't be here for my 40th. That was a hard pill to swallow. I thought for sure we'd be celebrating a lot that year... my Ph.D... a baby... a big, fancy car..... all of that. I only have one of those things so far but still... I was hoping that having her hold on at least until then would be the icing on my cak...

AKA: Thursday Tunes.... Today is my birthday!! *does a twirl* This year has been utterly amazing. I am sorry I haven't been blogging as often but real life is calling me in the worst way. I will say I am thankful for family, friends and most of all sanity. I am 34...knocking on 35...and peeking at 40! (LOL) I never thought almost 5 years post-divorce that I would be here.....in a different place: whole, happy, sane, in love.... I take that back...yes I did. I did because I had faith in God and I knew God doesn't fail people who believe in a better place. God doesn't leave his children to perish...not even during the storm. My pastor/Uncle said on Palm Sunday the following: "Your Second Half will be better than your First Half" Indeed...the second act of my life is getting better and better. Ducks are lining all up in a row for me....and I am blessed and I am grateful. I do not take it lightly at all. I knew my "latter would be greater...

Happy Birthday to Me!!   (I dunno if I have a future as a pole dancer...but hey....It was fun practice!!)

( http://www.sexyafter30.com/ ) ...SEXY AFTER 30!!! (Also..those are NOT my boobs!!) I'm 31 Today, Lovelies!! *wink* .. What are my plans? Hmm...probably dinner w/ my family. It's been a rather chill B-Day weekend. Not as hype as 30 was....Thanking GOD  has blessed (and better for it) me to see this year. See you all on the other side of 30, Loves!! *smooches*