I rolled over...turned my alarm off...sat in bed..and just prayed. It was the first time I actually had peace of mind...and my apartment was totally still. I was able to breath...able to just sit and think about all that I'm blessed with instead of reflecting on what I'm lacking.
I slept more...finally turning on my television to see my favorite show on TV, Psych, which was having a marathon. I popped more pain pills, got a cup of coffee, sat in bed and laughed and laughed. It felt so good to laugh uninhibitedly...and not cry about BS I can't control.
I fixed myself lunch...did some window shopping online...I didn't answer the phone or texts...I didn't really go on-line (except for my blogs..check out my other one too: http://stilettosandthesouthernbelle.blogspot.com )....I didn't think about the impending semester...just was able to regroup and refocus my energy.. in total silence..without distractions.
I thought about my "personal day" in terms of taking a break from relationships...talking about relationships...talking about why I don't have one..or why this dude did this or that. No talking about it today. Not focusing on it today. I won't mention my latest disappointment...my latest date..or my latest crush... or looking at a silly alert from some dating sit. A personal day from even thinking about my love life.
Sometimes you just need a break from this thing called "dating". Sometimes you need to not even think about it. Sometimes you need to "be still and know"....as the Bible says. It's draining and exhausting. You just get tired of analyzing your single life. You get tired of just going "Why?"
So just stop. Take a break. Take a day off...and have a "personal day" from your single life.