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Feeling/Not Feeling: Everything and Nothing..


 FEELING

  • This song by Cody Chestnutt. It just makes me swoon. I promise I will do a "Thursday Tune" on this alone. It deserves it.
  • smokey jazz clubs
  • 2 CHAINZZZZZZ!
  • I am not into Gospel but that Tamala Mann "Take me to The King" has really ministered to me this week.
  • Emeli Sande'
  • Snow on the Bluff (check it out on Netflix...it's the #1 movie there...)
  • contemplating celibacy again. I think I need to go back...
  • bonding w/ new friends
  • when he lets you sit in his lap, wraps his arms around you after a bad day, lets you lay your head on his chest, letting you cry, and just kisses your forehead and goes..."Shh....it's alright"
  • getting into a new artist....and just digging them so hard oyu have to find every song, every mixtape. It's like a treasure hunt
  • finding your G-spot
  • I remember finding my G-spot like it was yesterday. I was 12......(yo...that's for another post).
  • However...It wasn't until I turned like 33 that I had a full out, HUMUNGOUS orgasm that scared the mess outta me.....literally.
  • Sorry. That  might have been kinda graphic. LOL.
  • I find it funny that on the outside...no one would think I blogged about sex, relationships or had this interest in the intersection of sex/literature like I do.
  • Finding "your spot" period.....whether it be sexual or otherwise...is awesome
  • bistro cafes with dim, romantic lighting.
  • Nutella is still everything
  • So are shoes
  • So are dimples. they make my nipples hard.
  • Beards too...beards are porn for me....
  • Sorry...that was probably TMI too. LOL
  • I love how my coworkers, bless their hearts, always look for a man for me. It's sweet!
  • I still believe.......although I may falter.........I do...I still believe
  • This wedding video...good lord. I have cried 1000 times watching it. Nope..I don't know these people but I just felt something here.
  • Love....it's still beautful.



NOT FEELING

  • where is the new T.I. album? DAMN! I've waited long enough.
  • no laps to live in........none. (See. above and Andre 3000)
  • getting into a new artist...then the whole worlds gets on them...and ruins your listening experience. *smh*
  • some people have no idea where their clitoris, g-spots, or anything pertaining to their anatomy is. That is kinda sad yo....
  • i miss my loose nappy hair.....only becaase I wanna be able to braid it flat and rock weird wigs. LOL
  • that school starts in a week
  • real hard MAC looking eyebrows (ya'll know what I'm talking about)
  • My "date night"c lothes haven't been worn. Nope...not at all. Some still have tags. Some shoes still in boxes. My 
  • That 2 Chainz is actually a college graduate...yet sounds like a complete asswipe. smh. I mean really dude...you is a Summa Cum Laude grad of ASU. smh.....
  • that manual labor should be ANYWHERE in my job description. I went to school to avoid that shit.
  • Ronmey and whoever-that joker-he is running with. LOL.
  • People are so judgemental about what two consenting adults do. As long as one is truthful with the other and establishes their boundaries and rules...I gives no damn. Your freak don't interfere with mine.
  • like i have anymore good poems left in me.
  • putting myself on a shopping restriction but it is for my own good. 
  • that may put a suffering on the shoe blog. But...we'll have to do something about that. Revamp
  • Sadly, none of my friends have a fucking CLUE as to my "type" so when they try and set me up...it's an absolute failure.
  • Like I'm supposed to accept any old dude just because he's black and breathing.
  • I also don't like when my dudes are telling me something..and I feel like it's lightweight gloating/bragging. I usually just get kinda quiet......
  • I could never accept willingly to be some dude's "beard". Nope. no way.
  • I've been in such a painful place. Jeesh...how do I move?
  • I am SO FRUSTRATED with working out and not seeing any real results.  I've tried it all....I want to quit. Imma just get LapBand and be done. my BMI is prob high enough....
  • Love....that elusive bastard........... *sigh*

Comments

  1. Nutella is the bomb, i hate 2 Chainz, and i remember finding my g-spot too. I was SO shocked that it existed.... i thought it was just an urban legend! LOL!!!

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    1. How can you ahte @ Chainz!! LMAO! He is cute....in a really ugly way. (I cant explain it...LOL). and Nutella is so good but bad for you. It's just a "treat" here and there...... and G spot's are amazing. I've tested several vibes for that purpose and sometimes..good old fashioned "hand maneuvers" do the tricl better. LOL

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  2. - "contemplating celibacy again. I think I need to go back" -> What brought those thoughts back?

    - "getting into a new artist....and just digging them so hard oyu have to find every song, every mixtape. It's like a treasure hunt" -> I know the feeling. That was my immediate reaction when I found out about Childish Gambino

    - "However...It wasn't until I turned like 33 that I had a full out, HUMUNGOUS orgasm that scared the mess outta me.....literally." -> How scared are we talking?

    - "I find it funny that on the outside...no one would think I blogged about sex, relationships or had this interest in the intersection of sex/literature like I do." -> What do you think is the cause of this misconception?

    - "getting into a new artist...then the whole worlds gets on them...and ruins your listening experience. *smh*" -> That's the fast way to fall from cloud 9.

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    1. So may questions.
      Well..I just need a break again. I feel like I broke a vow to myself and God..so I just need to take a step back.

      And we talking MAJORLY scared (LOL)..like shaking..but then again..that was an after effect.

      As for the misconception..I am super conservative on the outside..I am kinda boring. LOL.

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