Feeling/Not Feeling: Random Friday

FEELING:

• like a hopeless romantic
• like buying a jumpsuit (random)
• like watching some porn. cause my friend @ThePrissyMommy reminded me I haven't done a "Weekly Porn Review" in ages. But since I've made a personal vow to not watch any, I havent had any to review. Maybe that'll change.
• like I need a hobby
• that Frank Ocean is the bravest dude I know. and I LOVE him. 
• D"angelo's Return
• The BET awards wasn't so rachet this year which is good
• ..Frankie Beverly and Maze got honored on the show which is nice.
• deep down I know good, attractive men exist. I dont subscribe to male bashing for that reason. Sure..I get frustrated but bashing ain't my style.
• I gotta get another tattoo
• perhaps I need to "sell myself" and advertise all the qualities I have. Like a want ad.....for dating. (I am reading this book called The Surrendered Single and they suggest you "advertise" that you are single to friends, family, social networks, etc.. I am so shy...I don't know but hey.........I am single. I am available for dates and proper courting. LOL........*bats eyelashes*.)

NOT FEELING:

• sharing how I am feeling with most of my friends. Deep inside, I just am exhausted. and quite honestly, I don't want to talk.
• like a hopeless romantic. I feel like Charlotte:  "I've been dating since I was 16...where is he???"
• wearing my heart on my sleeve like the true Aries I am...doesn't really help
• Maxwell's concert was cancelled. I am sad. My summer is over basically.....
• I miss my girls.
• If you are anti-relationship...how can you give relationship advice??? I mean..................*blinks* whatever. I don't believe a word you have to say, patna!
• I miss being loved and being in love. Oh I am loved.....but......anyway.....maybe guys..nevermind...
• adored. And I KNOW and we know my thoughts on that. I'm worth the adoration
• like a I have a good, platonic guy friend to bounce things off of. I seriously do not have one guy friend who hasn't tried me......(.well...except my gay boyfriends :)
• most of the music that is out
• like I have control.
• like I'm not a real black person cause I've never been to Essence Fest and I wanna go
• like heading back in the school groove..but it has to happen....*sigh*
• like working out everyday, all day is working. I am tired. It's easier to be fat (LOL)
• like I'm just a bother. I recall talking to some friends about something and they cut the convo short. Fine...*smh* LOL.
• I deserve more than what has been presented to me. Seriously....
• that I want a vacation yet have nowhere to go...and I am not going solo again
• ..like i have no more tears left in my tear ducts. Seriously......
•  like I need a reason to smile. I havent had a gut busting laugh or smiled super hard in a really long time. I want my smile back :)