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Feeling/Not Feeling

  • All Things Wonder Woman
  • Getting back into the running swing of things
  • I'm almost at my hair goal of "WLH" (waist-length hair). That's amazing..almost 8 years of growing locs...
  • How AMAZING Jennifer Hudson looked and how fly she was at ANY size.....and she was confident with it.
  • Just living my life without any regrets
  • Obtaining some goals I've been putting off for years
  • Living a life with no fear
  • Kiehl's Mango Lipbalm
  • Wii FIT
  • My mother's getting stronger everyday..I see it.
  • Making new are never too old to make a new friend.
  • I want to get have a relationship..but right now..I kinda LIKE being alone for a while. I'm at peace. I can eat Nutella alone (LOL).
  • A new cell phone...ASAP
  • How nice my place is being decorated.....
  • Still believing that marriage is for sure worth it.
  • Being selfish...and right now thats a GOOD thing.

Not Feeling
  • People not recognizing the difference between "THICK" and "FAT". I'm thick. Not Obese. Gabby Sidibe is FAT/OBESE, not thick. I dunno WHY some people think if you fall in the THICK category you are fat. WRONG.
  • People not understanding that relationships evolve...respect it.
  • now that my hair IS longer...I'm so bored with it...*sigh*. Maybe a new color for spring/summer will cheer me up.
  • Weirdos (that's all encompassing)
  • Wanting to be a mother..but feeling like that opportunity won't happen  until I am damn near 40.
  • Not having the time to cook
  • Weight Watchers point system confuses me..but I'm just slow I guess
  • How Janet Jackson's tickets were sold out in a matter of minutes!! :(
  • Dating: I just can't do it anymore. I can't.
  • Making people a priority....when they make you an option
  • One word conversations. Just dont even bother talking to me.....
  • Feeling alone but not lonely...big difference.
  • if one more joker with 50-Leven hundert chullins approaches me..Imma throw myself off the state campital building.
  • not knowing HOW to cook for one. I've tried but I just cant so....I end up freezing everything (LOL).


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