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Feeling/Not Feeling

Feeling
  • I love this. I got this from my boy's FB page.
  • That my ankle is somewhat improving...Praise God
  • This song by Zhane............still resonates with me. OH! And this one
  • Black bras. I have about 10 of em. Seriously...
  • The Occupy movement. I feel them........(despite some of them being privileged white people.)
  • This new Robin Thicke....can't wait till we get a new album from him.
  • Bubble baths with chilled glasses of Chardonnay. That may just be my fav wine actually...
  • Hot cocoa...curled up w/ my afghan and Netflix
  • That I dropped this wretched class.
  • I think I have a crush again. It's lame. It's cute. I don't care.
  • My little Nicki Minaj nameplate necklace that I got. I got my real name..it's cheesy. It's fun. *shrug*
  • Kindle Fire..YES PREODERD
  • Iphone 4s...ON IT
  • How beautiful and awesome that my friends think I am
  • I've been divorced almost 3 full years... I am glad to be here still.
  • Spring break in Playa del Carmen...............yesssssssssssss :)

Not Feeling
  • How most men are not feeling that same sentiment (posted above).
  • That I STILL haven't worn my shoes (except around the house..that blows)
  • Beyonce is a choreography theif...she aint original. She's too slow and vapid to be. LOL.
  • Jay Z is a lyric theif...so they belong together. LOL
  • How folks hold on to checks and don't cash them in a timely manner. Don't hold onto my money like that. You miss me off....seriously.
  • That Zhane basically became Floetry...and jsut like great duos....they broke up too. *Sigh*
  • White underwear. They show through everything. I do not buy white undies.
  • That they are seriously going to have a Best Man 2. Why can't we leave well enough alone??
  • That the Occupy movement hasnt turned into a Tea Party mobilization. We need some Tyler Durden type revolution going on!
  • How during this whole period of "breaking"...that what I miss most is arms to hold...secrets to share...kisses to steal...and being playful. Not the sex. It's never really about that is it...
  • How people spend so much money on hair weave and makeup and junk..and have jacked up teeth. I seriously don't get it.....
  • How black people (esp the church) is so homophobic. What did gay folks ever do to you? Nothing I am presuming...
  • That now that I dropped said wretched class..it puts be a semester behind on my requirements. Ugh.
  • Dudes who approach me on some "Hey Locs./Natural Sista" vibe. No i dont want you to be disrespectful...but at the same time..I do not want your scented oil/Nag Champa Smelling/riding a bike w/ a backpack/freelove without the "papers"/the man is holding me down cause you are keeping it real and not wanting to be part of the "system"/using big words like you fresh out the joint/spitting spoken word/spitting sh*t like "Sister Queen Mother of the Earth Nile Goddess" bullcrap/can't keep a real job/I don't trust porkchops having ASSES! (LOL)
  • People who assume because I have locs..that I want some "earthy/Granola" type dude. That's cool..but I am much more into intellectuals.
  • how DRY BET shows are. I mean utterly and completely DRY
  • They cancelled Playboy Club! PLEASE bring it back..and move it to Showtime or something.
  • I miss my annual Halloween parties
  • I miss my old house *sigh*
  • My Falcons are really making me ill....
  • NBA lock out is ridic!
  • People who say "cray-cray" .
  • How raggedy this Blackberry is. We is in the last days, yo! LOL
  • How I'd rather be in the Caribbean for the holidays....
  • I've been divorced 3 years..and sometimes I still get angry...I still get sad. It doesn't get easier. BUT I'm glad to be here.

Comments

  1. I LOVE that quote!!!!!!!!

    My Zhane song is Everything happens for a reason

    I am going to order a Kindle fire too I do believe and get reimb. by my job #winning

    I am sorta excited about The Best Man II (I still have the org. on VHS lol) I hope Taye and Sanaa are over and done never felt they had any chemistry. If the movie sucks I will talk about it though.

    Glad your ankle is feeling better

    I am feeling Oprah's Life Classes!!!

    #confession I have a crush too *sighs*

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  2. I will be #teamIphone in March when my contract ends and I HATE touchscreens but I am soooo OVER my blackberry

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  3. I love that quote too, lol. Love it, and love that a dude is proud to rock that on his page.

    Yuck, Chardonnay dude? So dry. Hahaha! Im a sweet wine gal myself.

    Those lil' name plate throw back necklaces are SO cute! I wanted to get one with my Twitter handle (cuz there's a website online that doe sit), but my handle is way too long and it would look dumb.

    Omg, that burns me up when folks hold on to my check. Umm, you can do that if you want. But dont expect the money to just be there when you're ready for it.

    Yeah, Nabu has said the very same thing about folks automatically making assumptions about her based on her hair. I mean, she enjoys the locs because she appreciates and loves natural hair, thats a given... but she said she simply has them because she likes how they look on her... and she doesnt fit the stereotype that folks generally have of sistas with locs and that its just annoying.

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