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Feeling/Not Feeling: Fall Edition


FEELING

  • It is fall time to break out the boots, sweaters
  • I got some cashmere leggings...#WINNING
  • Fall...perfect time to fall in love.
  • I'm in love. Yep...I will only say that once on this blog. And he's amazing.
  • Sometimes love is right under your nose
  • And sometimes the things you put out into the universe, like Bliss, actually happen
  • Time to break out the socks
  • Halloween is coming. Still haven't decided on a costume.
  • Luckily...those costumes can be recycled for uhm.."other" purposes! *cough*
  • my Pinterest addiction is getting out of hand. My "Wedding" board especially.
  • Starbucks double fudge brownie
  • Just 1 more semester of coursework
  • chill weekends..under covers and watching Netflix
  • daydreaming about vacations.I need a cruise. A fruity drink or something...
  • my bootleg Clarisonic face cleaner. It's not Clarisonic but it works just as well
  • Amazon Prime.
  • a man who can cook :) Thank you Jesus! 
  • Miguel's Kaleidoscope Dream
  • Tamia's new album
  • Finding that song that is just "us"
  • Another season of Luther...please hurry BBC!! Idris is so delicious
  • loved. Oh my..he sure does love me...........*giggles* I like the fact that I can say that w/o hesitation and believe again.







NOT FEELING

  • no more wearing short skirts, bare legs,  and short sleeves
  • being that "in between" size.
  • small business like Cocobabies closing. I loved them.
  • Pumpkin everything. Bleh.....Starbucks is killing me right now
  • R. Kelly is becoming rather trite these days
  • Guess Maxwell said F*ck music, huh? smh
  • Where is that D'Angelo album? And the T.I album?
  • going off my diet. It's partly my own depression..partly my honey's fault (LOL), and partly just unmotivated.. Least I'm not gaining weight.............(but I aint losing either)
  • Shitty Mitty aka Mittens aka Mitt the Twit Romney. I'll be glad when this election is over and President Obama can be reelected.
  • The assault of the womb of women in the election. I swear..
  • My PhD is almost over. Here comes the hard part...exams and crap..........
  • FLava Flav getting arrested
  • Tyler Perry in any role other than a coon.
  • Bath Salts...
  • songs that remind me of an ex...are forever ruined because of that connection.
  • that I missed my friends so much. They are so far (DC/NYC/TX.....)
  • ugh..when WILL I be able to take a vacation??
  • this mid-semester slump. I am just angry and sad and a bunch of things
  • feeling like I fell in love at the WRONG time w/ the right person...so much is happening. school. work. my personal (family) life. All going to hell real fast.
  • my mother is sick. I am sad. I'm just depressed about it.
  • feeling helpless.
  • the comprehensive exam process. I fear failure........
  • I am so neglecting this blog. I am sorry readers. Life happens

Comments

  1. Omg @ the phd being almost over!!!! Time has really flown.

    I LOVE that you're in love!!!!!!!!!!!

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