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Feeling/Not Feeling: New Life Chapters

(It's going to be great)

FEELING

I am incredibly childish for feeling this but...........Ms Donna Goudeau. We gonna hold you down, sis! We know you are legally blind.

How to Get Away with Murder. Viola is all that!

My wedding photos. They are so bomb (although I haven't seen the rest of the). Thanks Montoya and crew!

The Read. I listen to those fools religiously......

Honeymoons like mine. I wish I was there. Unlimited food and drink. Jacuzzis....EVERYTHING


So many weddings over the past couple of months

All these new movies coming out. Dear White People. The Equalizer.. Top Five (w/ Chris Rock)

Couple Dates. Apparently we are acceptable to hang out with as a unit again. Going to see Dear White People w/ another couple.

My new hairstylist. She's everything and like an older sister. The best.

Makeup organization. My husband thought I was nuts for obsessiing over it. But anyway...take a look at my collection over on my style blog HERE.

All the awesome black webseries that are coming out

Issa Rae's new book. I pre-ordered it.

Mindy Kaling. She's so the Indian me sometimes

Like another tattoo. I got some ideas now..........where to put it???? Hmmmmmm

My Iphone 6. It's bigger. It's better. It bends but who gives a sh*t.

Cold mornings. Curled up next to HubbyDude.....

I still love wedding videos on Vimeo.

LOoking forward to the holidays. My first Christmas married. *EEK!*

My new photography habit. Just bought a Tripod. Can you say.."Cheesy Family Christmas Cards??" YEP!!!

Sam Smith. That entire album is WHEW!

Earl Sweatshirt...........

More Vacations. The fact that my husband is from a tropical island automatically means TROPICAL vacations! YES!

Being Financial w/ my sorority! I DID IT! I wont be able to come to meetings but I at least can pay dues.

Instagram is way better than Twitter. Facebook is better than Twitter. Pinterest is the best thing ever!


NOT FEELING
I already don't like Beyonce but her new bangs look like Blue Ivy Cut them w/ plastic school scissors. LOL

People who constantly record at weddings. All in the aisle on yoru smart phone, interrupting photos from the photographer. We had a no camera rule at the ceremony (didn't care about the reception) but hey.........doesn't stop most folks. Not even family! *tsk*

Addiction the movie was so trash. Just bad all around....

My neighborhood. IT's a quiet, quaint town but...the fact that it is that way it is attractive for movie crews (Like The Walking Dead) and fun-runs and sh*t....causing us to be stuck in the house, streets cut off. Not cool, dude.

Old Ex's popping up in the pic to say "Congrats". Go choke on a d*ck............

Like I am close to my mom anymore. *sigh*. I think she's giving me "marital space" but I miss her.......

Shopping. Which is really cutting into my Style blog. I need to get back to shoes and clothes and such. *sigh* I will just have to shop my closet.

Like I have a good grip on this PhD thing. Part of me wants to stop...live a regular a** life w/o this obligation. But Part of me wants to complete this goal. I am not superwoman. *sigh*

I need to get my shopping habit under control. which is why I don't feel like shopping. Hell I got everything I want.

Hand writing thank you cards. JESUS..........

Most Music these days....

Excessive hashtag abuse..... Grow up!

My house...it needs a bit of organizing and redecorating.........I mean if I did get pregnant...Kid would have to sleep in a closet. LOL.

Scandal this season. It's sorta BLEH!

Like buying a new MacBook but looks like Imma have to. Son of a B*Tch.......

That I am so old now. Time is ticking.........

Like working out. Imma just stay fat....it's so much easier. (But Diabetes and Dialysis isn't cute so..I may wanna reevaluate that..........esp given my current health situation .)


Like I am young enough to enjoy Homecoming at my college. I feel so stuck in between. And I really wanted to take my husband (who didnt go to an HBCU but def wanted to...). Maybe next year

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